You have my deepest sympathy during this time of sorrow.  The loss of a loved one is painful.  Jehovah gives to us ways to endure our sorrows through His word.  I'd like to share scripture that may comfort you.  Rev 21:4 reads...He will wipe out every tear from their eyes and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor out cry nor pain be any more.  The former things have passed away.  Isaiah 36:6 reads...The lame one will climb up as a stag does.  Isaiah 35:5 reads...The eyes of the blind one will be opened.  John 5:28, 29 reads...All those in the memorial tombs will come out.  We have reason to have faith in God's word because:  Isaiah 55:11 reads...So my word that goes forth from my mouth will prove to be.  It will not return to me without result.  But it will certainly do that in which I have delighted and it will have certain success in that in which I have sent it.